Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Kundalini - the flow and chakras

It is often said that Kundalini flows from chakra to chakra and then finally reaches the final sahasrara. Yes, in the first few days the chakras did rotate as Kundalini in a sequential manner as it rose from the base of the spine to the top of the head. I have experienced - muladhara, swadhistanda, anahata, vishuddhi and agna chakra. The chakra that is most within my reach is the heart chakra. I can just send prana to the chakra or concentrate on this heart centre and make it rotate.

However, today after an year of activation as Kundalini flows from the base of the spine to the top, the chakras no more get activated. The energy moves at times in a straight line, at times in a spiral similar to an ascending snake across the spine to the top of the head. This Kundalini, then pours into the brain from the spinal chord. The pranic sensations on the top of the head are because of this. As I always tell, Kundalini is nothing but potential prana.

Hence, the flow is not sequential. It is not a step by step approach. But the flow from the base to the top of the head without immediate interferences. Shiva Samhita tells that the flow can follow many patterns. However, when there is the grace of the lord then the energy directly pours into the brain from the base. Drop the "I" and find the bliss.

The order of things !

I am still confused as to the order of things. Does Kevala Kumbhaka lead to Kundalini or Kundalini leads to Kevala Kumbhaka ? Yesterday I could clearly see, how Kevala Kumbhaka leads to a rise of Kundalini. Hence, I see that Kevala Kumbhaka is the source and the Kundalini is the effect. However, the very rise of Kundalini onto the top of the head and its observation leads to a restraint of prana and inturn leads to kevala kumbhaka. Hence, the entire process is cyclic.

The Kundalini in the head is prana - energetic. This energy is responsible for the evolution of the brain. I am very confident about this as I perceive different parts of the brain being worked upon and would be responsible for different states of the brain. Ecstasy, bliss, devotion etc are possible only with Kundalini.

My brain is evolving and I dont have anything in my control. It just puts me in this great bliss and carries on its work - never ending. There is a divinity within us all - the solution for all the problems, the bestower of happiness. The energy has this unique quality that it doesnt solve your problems but just makes you forget everything - the irrelevance of everything.

Why did this state arise in me ?
I remember having heart chakra itching right from my childhood. Also, I had this itching on the top of the root palette right from my childhood. I was thinking this to be an allergy. But only last year, when I was able to sense the rise of Kundalini and the prana made me to put my tongue on the roof palette that I understood that Kundalini was asking me to do this right from my childhood. However, I was unaware of this. Only after going through a lot of documentation in the past few years that I was made known that this is Khechari muudra. Hence, I would tell that kundalini was not the result of a Brahmacharya which I don't think I strictly observed, but something that I carried over right from my birth probably.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

The real essence of life

It makes me confused at times that people don't think anything about the genuinity of life. They dont question anything about themselves. The end of their life - death - and what happens there after. They are not bothered about the working of the nature. Forget the external, the very idea that their breath is working automatically without their knowing shows that their should be something which we don't know that is doing work subtlely. Most of the people they just spend their life on this earth in wanting more money, more merry and more party. They are not concerned about the use of this life in understanding themselves. A yogi and a drug addict are alike. One is looking for permanent happiness while the other is looking for temporary means.

When I see elite people, the place I come from, who are supposedly the brightest & the best in the country involved in unwanted activities and not concerned about this truth, it makes me ponder if I am the only one on this earth who thinks this way? We forget to question the infinity of the universe, the precision with which the earth etc rotate around the sun, the cases of re-incarnation and NDE cases.

Though I have been thinking about these a lot nowadays, Kundalini has indeed opened my eyes. We have a purpose in life and that is to realise our own selves. I have pondered once in a while, as to how cruel it is for the almighty to create this world, put us all in misery and tell that you need to realise that you are bliss and all the problems will be solved. It is a confused world and so I feel that believing in a creator can work wonders, like arousal of Kundalini.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Prana and the body

It is 12:43 PM now and the prana level in the head is steadily increasing and tightening the brain. I got up at 9:00 and had easy life till now, but now since the prana increases in the head from now till I sleep at around 11:30pm its activity would be immense. Where does this prana suddenly increase from ? Does it increase because of the breakfast I have. May be, but prana increases tremendously at 12 noon everyday regardless of me having breakfast. Hence, there should be absorption of the prana from the breath or the prana should be synthesised in the body. Kundalini is a source of prana, may be it pushes out Prana because of which it increases in the head.
Don't have answers to any of these.

The nature of Prana

What is this prana that I talk about that constantly moves in my head ?
What is it that moves from the middle of the foot, kicks off the base of the spine and flows upwards towards the brain via the spine ?
What is it that when focussed upon or mediated upon holds your breath and gives Kevala Kumbhaka?
What is it that is behind the mind yet driven by the mind?

The prana has its source in the heart. As soon as I get up in the morning, there is some prana - very minimal prana in the head. Hence, in the morning - I dont have much problems in doing any thing. However, as time picks up there is more accumulation of prana in the head. Prana is in the spiritual heart at the right side of the chest. When we wake up, the very stretching makes this prana move away from the heart and distribute to the body so that it can activate all the organs & sense organs. Prana rules the sense organs and hence it is called Indra ( rule over Indriyas). Similarly, I have experienced that as we sleep the prana moves into the heart back. Hence, the source of prana is the heart. I know that it makes its way down from the brain, through the neck to the heart. But what happens after is something which is not known to me.

The modern science is looking for a God particle. But I feel the godliness is the life itself - the prana out of which everything emerges.However, Prana is not a particle but a wave. It is the wind with intelligence. It doesnt move when you blow air but has its own will. It can't be seen with naked eyes but can be experienced similar to air. Prana tightens my brain, makes rotations inside the brain etc. Thus only by the effect the source prana can be known.

What is the structure of prana ?
Prana is wind. It is a wave. It has light. Hence, Prana is light but a wave. The structure of Prana is similar to the plastic sheet that is held in the collars of shirts as support in malls. Imagine, this plastic sheet moving with sharp edges and corners. This is Prana. It is light yet transparent and can move. The sharp edges work myriad on the brain. I don't know exactly as to what it is doing on the brain. But it works on the outer surface at times, on the inner most or the central part at times. Once when I was sitting in a class listening to a lecture, it cut something inside my brain and this made me blacked out for 3s. The Prana is the most subtle, all doing, ever active, most dynamic life force. It works and works, works so hard on the brain.

Kundalini - How have I changed ?

With the dawn of Kundalini, my personality has changed tremendously.
1. The zeal to work has reduced and I put in work only if absolutely necessary.

2. The joy that people express when they tell their experience, the story of how the session happened etc. sound foolish to me. I can't take it.I feel that the bliss that I am in is the greatest and feel sad that these people are happy by some artificial event.

3. I can't lie. I can't argue much. I can't become angry. The reason for this is as follows. I already am aware of the potential prana in the brain. For the brain to work, mind to work,prana is necessary and this prana is in constant motion. It kicks of the layers of the brain and makes it work. When I become angry or feel artificial, then this prana is set in a swirling motion and this motion of prana causes more harm to me resulting in a headache. In a non-kundalini awakened person, the swirling of the prana also exists but the person will not be able to find the effect of this as he is unaware of it and no headache. But becoming angry is the churning of prana and its action on the brain is disastrous.

4. Since the bliss is always there, I am like a drunkard addicted to the bliss. The only way I have to come out of this bliss is to come out forcefully. Not observing prana or while doing some external work etc. still the prana would be constantly working but I would have forgotten it. However, the movement of the prana inside constantly turns your attention towards it and thus your attention stays inwards. This makes the ourside world non-existent. Even though you open your eyes, your mind's eye is still on the prana and thus you stay inward. When you stay inward, i believe you abide in yourself and thus there is a flow of bliss.

5. I am disinterested in wordly affairs. This is natural for any drunkard. So is the case for me who is drowned in bliss. I dont know if this bliss is from Kundalini or from the self. I know there is a great bliss. This bliss is constant and atleast 10 times stronger than the sex.

6. I know when a chakra rotates in the body. Basically, I am aware of the pranic spectrum in the body and thus when a chakra rotates I am aware of the rotation of prana at that part.

7.I have become more self composed. I believe in God now and pray more for my destiny. This has made me less active in activities personally/professionally.

8. Since I can't hide anything and am in bliss, my awareness on how I procees and talk to people has reduced. I have lost a sense of my self. I just do it. I don't know how and why I do it and am not concerned about how others perceive myself.

9. I can't take in ego. I once had been to this hotel where this one lady was talking about how her husband manages everything, the number of palaces they own, frequent trips across the world etc. I couldn't take it and wanted to run away from that place. Kundalini depersonalises you so much that anything "I" is not entertained.

10. Finally, its devotion. Unlike the bliss associated with alcohol or any drugs, Kundalini bliss is with devotion. It sparks the purity in you. You experience that sachidanada - the truth, purity and bliss.

11. It is difficult to move in the world with this bliss, the pressure in the head etc. I am about to complete my business school. Kundalini sparking off in my school has been the greatest gift as I could get atleast 1.5 years to learn about it and adjust.Its gonna be difficult for me at workplace etc. The only hope is to believe in a divine plan and act accordingly.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Theory 1 - December 20th, 2009

Kundalini, which is supposedly the prakriti is located at the base of the spine and she rises up the spine to the brain. What is Kundalini,is not much different from Prana. High potential prana should be Kundalini. In my experience, if prana is to be there even before in the body I couldnt experience it. However, when I had a Kundalini awakening - a process which involves the movement of the stored prana up into the brain then I could see/trace the movement of prana inside the head or in the brain. Hence, the very idea that I am able to sense pranic movements in the head now and not before showcases that Kundalini is high voltage prana.

Now, this prana has an ability to draw things inside. When there is activity in a theatre, a movie is being played, our attention goes outside. Similarly, when there is the pranic movement inside, our attention is drawn inside. The very beauty of this force makes our attention move inside and hence when we can sense pranic fluctuations in the head we are made to move inside. Our attention goes inside.

When the attention goes inside and then we start observing the prana, then we are controlling prana. Prana, breath and mind are related to each other.When one is controlled all the others are automatically controlled. Hence, once the attention goes inside and we start observing the prana then the mind is also controlled. The upanishads tell that the prana gives rise to mind and mind gives rise to prana. Hence, the mind is controlled with this observation of the movement of the prana. But the ultimate goal of pranayama is to control the prana itself. Prana as I experience in my head is in a continuos movement. One thought and prana dances in the body. It is said that prana acts upon the vasanas in the brain to create the mind. These vasanas are created according to once own karma. When prana is meditated upon by observation, then the mind stops. When the mind stops, prana settles - a chain reaction settles in. When the prana stops, then the breathing automatically stops and Kevala Kumbhaka pitches in. With kevala kumbhaka, prana enters into sushumna and then there is no more disturbances of the prana. When the disturbances of the prana stops it is like the ripples on a sea are settled. When the ripples on the surface stop, then the grand abyss of the ocean becomes visible. This grand abyss is nothing but the atman or the bramhan. However, except for a light in the forehead, I have not experienced anything of the Brahman till now. When the prana becomes still, the mind and body becomes still then one exists in the gap between the puraka and rechaka. This is the abidance in the atman. I often wonder, if I am able to observe the prana which is not visible to the naked eye and the physical body, then where is the observer ? The obvious answer is we are the Brahman.

The Yoga Vashishta tells that Prana and Brahman are like the two sides of a coin. If one is seen, it is easy to flip over and see the other side. Also, the upanishads tell that though Prana is from Brahman, prana is not brahmnan. The analogy is like the sun and its rays. The Brahman is the sun and the Prana are its rays. The Kathopanishad tells the analogy of the chariot, the horses and the charioteer. The Brahman is the charioteer, the reins are the Prana and the senses are the horses.

Symbolism also has played a great role in the upanishads. Indra is said to be the winner of the senses,the Indriyas. It is the Prana that drives the Indriyas and hence Indra is Prana. Aiteriya Aranyaka makes a similar comparison. Indra is supposed to ride upon the 4 tusked elephant - Airaveta. Isn't our senses a 4 tusked elephant - difficult to control ? Thus the elephant is nothing but the mind. Indra rides on the Airavata. The Prana rides on the senses.

Experience 44 - 18th December 2009

I complete my 1 year of active Kundalini today. Exactly on this day, a year back I was confused about the rapid changes
happening in me and was lucky to get the guidance of Chrism as I was through Google.
Without Chrism's help, I wouldn't have made such an easy journey and surrender myself.
Thanks Chrism for all the support.

I have experienced a multitude of experiences in the last 1 year and the latest ones are -
a. Automatic retention of breath
b. Automatic Slow and deep breathing
c. Hearing of this sound or nada - the one that can be heard by closing the ears - automatically

Happy birthday to me on my discovery (or) should I be happy about being on the path of discovering the unborn :)

Chrism moderates kundalini yahoo group - kundaliniawakeningsystems1@yahoogroups.com

Experience 43 - 28th November 2009

Will pen down the understanding of the process that is happening in me after I have gone through few books.

1. The process called Kundalini started a year back which resulted in the movement of high energetic prana through the spine into the crown.
There has been some confusion whether Kundalini and Prana are the same and I have read both versions.
I personally feel Kundalini is Prana with higher vibrations.

2. The movement of this energy across the spine is like that of a serpent crawling in, hence it is also called serpent energy.
The Prana starts from the middle of the feet, through the legs and hits the Muladhara. K flows in from there in a spiral path to the brain.
The activation of chakras happened initially when K moved from spine to head, but chakras dont get activated now even though there is a flow.

3. Once the K started moving to the crown, Kriyas happened and Prana moved to the head. Once in the head, there is some activity in the head
which gives feelings of bliss. This inturn makes the attention move towards the head. There is an increased concentration on this activity and this results in
the formation of Shambhavi mudra automatically - focus on 3rd eye without any eye lid movement. When this happens automatically, the concentration
increases, an increased concentration reduces the breath. This breath reduction along with the loosening of the prana/ gain of prana control results in the
forming of Kevala Kumbhaka /stoppage of breath. The increased concentration/shambhavi mudra sends the energetic prana into the sushumna and this
also causes Kevala Kumbhaka.

4. When Kevala Kumbhaka/automatic suspension of breath happens, the prana moves via the sushumna to the top of the head called Trikoota. Trikoota is
an area in the head between the eyebrows and the crown.When this activity happens, the increased prana inturn bolsters Shambhavi Mudra, Kevala Kumbhaka.
The prana in the head now tries to dissolves the mind. In the final beuatitude, the mind when completely dissolved and prana gets sucked into sushumna then samadhi
occurs. When the sadhu comes out of samadhi, then there is a mind and hence prana also comes in. Mind and prana are together the cause and effect of each other.

5. Mystic Concepts
The entire process is similar to a chain reaction seen in any nuclear fission or nuclear fusion reaction.
Prana in the head, tries to dissolve mind. When mind dissolves, thoughts lessen, breathe reduces, kevala kumbhaka arrives sends the prana into the sushumna to the brain.
Prana again comes back to the brain/crown to dissolve mind and the process continues. In the process of Kevala Kumbhaka, the nadis purifies, the energy carriers become
good in transferring prana. Hence, the body becomes healthy and these vital airs become visible to the yogi. When the science of vital airs is known, the body can be
attuned the way he wants and this is called Sidhis - while this is just the body science. The human mind can conceive all this possibility with the advance of Kundalini.

But what lies beyond? Havent experienced anything on this.

Experience 42 - 12th November 2009

Having a very high head pressure past few days. The rotations in the head that cause these pressures
are also clearly perceptible. Every night,as I go to sleep a part of this energy goes straight down from
the head through the neck into the heart chakra. From the heart chakra, it makes a turn and goes into
the heart. The chakra at the heart (real heart) then rotates. After that, a part of it from the heart chakra
goes to the right side. This might be prana, but the part of the energy in the head keeps on rotating and doing its
work. The breathing rate has drastically come down. My breathing rate is around 5-6 breaths per minute.
Not giving attention to the process in the head or higher breath rate worsens the head pressure.

Also, for the breath rate - while most of the yoga practitioners ask us to allocate shallow breathing, currently my
breathing is something like this and is autonomous. I get a feeling that breathing is not required at all.
<---------------no breathing------------------><----------------no breathing----------------->
This is just one of the subtle breathing method. Because of this extreme bliss associated with K, my speaking abilities
have reduced. I sometimes dont get the right word to speak and end up using 3-4 words to describe something instead of
using one. Ex: I used "resistance in body movement" instead of using "inertia" while talking to a friend. It has become difficult
to get the right words while speaking. My communication skills were very good previously.

Any help in reducing the head pressure and improving the communication skills would greatly help me. Also, K doesnt allow me
to breathe more. I breathe in only 25% of the air I used to breathe in previously. With conscious effort, I can easily bring in the breathe to
2-3 breaths per minute without suffocation.

Experience 41 - 2nd November 2009

Experience 41 - The White light
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I was sitting in the class room and was able to see white light around the prof. today.
I started looked here and there and the white light is still there.
Looks like my eyes were internally on a white light and this was getting reflected.
If we stare at the sun for sometime, we see a red or black light everywhere for sometime.
If so, this was a similar experience but everything looked white.
For example, if I see a dark hole and turn my sight elsewhere - I see this dark hole but with white light in it.

Also, Kundalini is energetic prana that is sent to the brain for its evolution.
I can sense the movements of the prana in the head and request it to move anywhere inside the body.
Also, I read in an article that prana, mind and breath are connected. Prana controls mind, mind controls breath.
This is so true. When I start observing the movement of prana(air) inside my head, I get absorbed into it.
The mind is into this and hence the breathing stops. { This is autonomous}

Prashna upanishad tells that, it is the prana that drives the mind. The mind drives the breath.
Hence, it should be that Prana drives the breath. My focus on prana and concentration is like getting hold the
source of the mind - prana. Hence, breath comes into my control - or rather no breath. At times,I had this feeling
that should we breathe at all ?

The next obvious question that came for me then is if prana controls everything in the body, then where does prana
come from ? The answer came from Prana tattva chapter in Daivatma Kundalini (this chapter is available for free in google books)
It is the atma or the soul which generates prana.

The chapter from Daivatma Kundalini tells that -
"An yogi can control his autonomous nervous system " by controlling prana.
One of the way it mentions to control the prana is this -

"In this case prana is sacrificed into the fire of prana itself through the practices of Shambhavi and Khechari, when the currents of prana are made to rise up in the region of medula oblangata and ultimately merge in the cerebrum."

"In the second form of prana sacrafice breathing is gradually slowed down to a dead stop, thus the exhaling prana is sacrificed into the fire of the inhaling apana."

In my case both the above methods happen automatically and there is a sacrificial of prana.
How beautiful that our bodies work indeed. The modern science though we claim of having the highest place, is no where compared to these
simple realisations that the ancient rishis/sages have put in front of us.There cannot be a greater science than this.
Hats off to the ancient rishis/seers.

Experience 40 - 27th October 2009

Did a small research on the breathing patterns to check the contributions of both the left and right nostril.
The research data is for 4 days of breathing patterns at random intervals.
Turns out that I am using alternatively left and right nostril at random intervals.
Currently, using the right nostril more than the left nostril (winter ?).
Shows how intelligently the breathing patterns switch to keep up the body temperature.
Shall be continuing the research as to when both the nostrils would be functioning at the same time and would let you all know.

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Experience 39 - 22nd October 2009

Regardless of the path chosen it is told that a Kundalini awakening is needed to experience spirituality.
Also, as per the different yoga - Bhakti yoga is the supreme , if Kundalini the fastest.
As per my experience, Kundalini heightened states of bliss invariably puts you into Bhakti yoga.

When the waves of bliss push you into the depths, when the airs of purity of your soul engulf you - then
at a living consciousness - only absolute LOVE can explain this feeling. The closest that can match is unparalleled love
and this is the path of Bhakti yoga. Sri Adi Sankaracharya tells that Jnana and Bhakti are the same. One leads to the other.

We should all be the happiest that we have chosen the path of Kundalini.
The yogi of the Himalayas does Hatha Yoga for many decades, the sanyasi at the various ashram does Raja Yoga for 12 years.
Karma yoga is very difficult to be followed - as you always realise the importance of this only when you fail.
Success makes you forget the importance of the yoga.

If so, the great Kundalini - gives that ecstatic bliss without much complex asanas.
As per my experience- though integrity and truth are needed for its arousal. Once awakened, the mother knows how to mold the
child. It teaches the child with a stick - the areas that he/she can explore, the thoughts he can think and the moves one can make.
Excess of anything is a waste. In a mother-child relationship, the child always expects the constant attention of the mother.
But in K, the mother expects the constant attention of the child. Given, the constant attention, the necessary discipline and respect -
the child becomes the mother.

We face many problems while going through this process, but as Ramana puts in
"Everything will come right at the end". I am happy that Lordess of the worlds, the great prakriti, the one which woves the worlds
without a thought, is aroused in me and I experience the divine as I experience everyone else.
I bow down to you mother. I had been asking the father to get me that ultimate state, but mother you are the kindest to respond.

The grace at which you work on my different bodies, the speed at which you work - even if I could do try my whole lifetime, would it be possible without you ?
I bow down !

Experience 38 – 12th November 2009

Having a very high head pressure past few days. The rotations in the head that cause these pressures
are also clearly perceptible. Every night,as I go to sleep a part of this energy goes straight down from
the head through the neck into the heart chakra. From the heart chakra, it makes a turn and goes into
the heart. The chakra at the heart (real heart) then rotates. After that, a part of it from the heart chakra
goes to the right side. This might be prana, but the part of the energy in the head keeps on rotating and doing its work. The breathing rate has drastically come down. My breathing rate is around 5-6 breaths per minute. Not giving attention to the process in the head or higher breath rate worsens the head pressure.

Also, for the breath rate - while most of the yoga practitioners ask us to allocate shallow breathing, currently my breathing is something like this and is autonomous. I get a feeling that breathing is not required at all.
<---------------no breathing------------------><----------------no breathing----------------->
This is just one of the subtle breathing method. Because of this extreme bliss associated with K, my speaking abilities have reduced. I sometimes dont get the right word to speak and end up using 3-4 words to describe something instead of using one,mostly brcause of the bliss
Any help in reducing the head pressure and improving the communication skills would greatly help me. Also, K doesnt allow me to breathe more. I breathe in only 25% of the air I used to breathe in previously.

Experience 37 – 8h October 2009

Still the vibrations are all over my head, making the rotatory movements always.
The breathing rate has decreased drastically, that I don't breathe at times.
I read from Hatha Yoga Pradipika that a reduced breathe rate is an indication of the purification
of the nadis. The pressure to breathe automatically stops. During these periods , I have
vibrations in the heart as if a heart attack shall happen. I did panic for the first two times, but have now got used to these changes. I see that during this times K flows into the physical heart - not the heart chakra.


During the mornings, I get this feelings of bliss - a feeling of purity,divinity and love.
It is as if you want to grab hold of this as there is nothing better/blissful than this - but you can't get it. This results in a sense of insanity - being mad about it. True Bliss. Oh how can I explain this ! I go mad about this.

I am nearing one year of my K awakening (Dec) and K works and finally you end up at bliss - a feeling of purity and devotion. I have neither seen any colors nor chakras - but I can activate my chakras at will.

Experience 36 – 6h September 2009

My breathing rate has drastically come down - a feeling that I need not breathe at all.
Either I dont breathe at all for some time or I take in subtle breaths.
This happens automatically and my intervention only makes it bad.
My attention on the inner activity is increasing and am becoming inert to the
outside world. There is a great bliss. It is like I had 5 shots of Vodka and cigars.
I have got addicted to this bliss.

I am really happy that my Kundalini awakened and is making me experience this bliss.
How can I put this in words... I am experiencing a feeling of purity, bliss and devotion...

Experience 34 – 7h August 2009

I can see the light around people. I would not call it aura as I don't see any colors.
But I can actually see light, transparent yet whitish.
It is present in everyone and especially visible around the professors when they are presenting with lights switched off. I have observed more than 100 people and the light I see is the same across all the people.There is neither a change in the intensity nor does it change in the spread.
The only conclusion, I have come to is 'We are all light beings'.

Light definitely is us and when we die it should be this light that traces back to the source.
We are like the rays from the sun. They take the origin in the sun and yet are apart from it.

The full moon is taking its toll. Have much K activity going on inside.
As days progress, I am not bothered about anything. I am just as I am.
I have tried to put in the the different patterns K tries to make in my head as below -

Models of Kundalini energy flow

a. The infinity loop – The energy moves from the top through the vertical column, then the energy moves to the left side and then back to the top. Then again it goes down through the central vertical channel and to the right and then to the top. Of all the energy patterns, I experience this is the most common one.

b. The round about and the dip on the top model

c. The eyes clean up model – this energy movement occurs as soon as I close my eyes

Models of Kundalini energy flow

a. The infinity loop – The energy moves from the top through the vertical column, then the energy moves to the left side and then back to the top. Then again it goes down through the central vertical channel and to the right and then to the top. Of all the energy patterns, I experience this is the most common one.

b. The round about and the dip on the top model


c. The eyes clean up model – this energy movement occurs as soon as I close my eyes

Experience 32 – 28th July 2009

I am extremely happy for the past 7-8 hours.
This happiness no bounds and I don't know why I am happy.
This may sound silly, but I am happy. I don't know why I am, I am not bothered about anything.
I am happy. I am happy. I am happy.
I am so happy that I feel to write "I am happy" for 1000 times and still I would be happy and not be able to express my happiness.
The energy on the top of my head is doing maximum work and is very active.
Only thing that can match my happiness is the devotional music.
I have been hearing youtube devotional music songs, songs by m s subbalakshmi,
and they all sound great. When I listen to songs on Ganesh, I can actually feel him to
the most respectable one - a learned one. A great respect comes to him for no apparent reason.
His image conveys such infinite knowledge.
Have never felt anything like this before, though I have seen his image many times till date..

"I am happy,I am happy,I am happy"..

In these moments, I also feel that poems and songs convey more than words.
The devotional songs written by so many poets how beautiful, what a devotion !!

I have seen that, at times I incline towards Bhakti Yoga- belief in the images of God and his praise, and at times I insist on
Jnana Yoga - belief in nonduality and formlessness.. Strangely, when I am in one state the other yoga sounds
stupid and vice versa. Today, it is Bhakti Yoga - Strong shakes of energy move through when I see images of God and hear
to devotional songs in youtube. It is out of respect, out of devotion, out of the amazement in creation.

"I am happy,I am happy,I am happy"..

Experience 31 – 21st July 2009

I am in constant bliss. There is this great massage going on my brain that makes me feel totally satisfied.
I cant do presentations in the class, as I feel a drift from that state and a sense of artificiality.
I can feel the lotus on the top of of the head. At times the energy,makes its way through the
stalk of the lotus. Once it is upto the top, it cuts the closed bud of the lotus in circular patterns
at different places so as to open the lotus. This is a constant activity going on.
Apart from this, the brain is constantly being acted upon.The energy patterns I put in here -

a. There is an infinity pattern being carved in the brain. The energy goes into the brain middle groove from the bottom to the top, takes a right turn completes
the right brain circulation and then back into the groove and then does a left brain circulation.
This is the image of infinity in science. ∞ - exactly, this is the pattern.
Wonder, if infinity symbol was inspired by this energy pattern.

b. The amount of energy on my head is similar to a block on my head again. Very heavy indeed but still pleasurable.

The experience is wonderful,bliss yet detached,happy inside but no facial signs outisde.
Any activity apart from being in it is just a drift away from the happiness.
It sounds unnatural for me to talk. When I talk or do any other activity, out of compulsion, I feel the
artificiality in it. The best way I can put is 'It is a drift from something natural' - a waste of energy.

As the energy makes patterns, it gives this bliss of simplicity. Even a thought, is impure and disturbs that
state.You cant think about yourself, forget about others. You just stay. You just watch.
Even the hand mudra makes me feel attached. Freedom is the sense you get.
Also, it looks like there is a great happiness and I feel that the only way to reach it is to become more simplified,
more humble,more honest. This writing also sounds artificial. How do I put in ?
Days just seem to pass away.

Experience 30 – 12th July 2009

It has been nearing 6 months since I realised my kundalini awakening.
It has been the most dramatic experience, I could have ever imagined.
What has changed over the last few months ?
I have moved into a constant meditation phase. It is like a 24 hr meditation.
The force has made me a drunkard - you need to just watch or not - and that is the ultimate beauty.
No thoughts, no analysis, no logic - it is there always - the giver of peace,liberty.
I cant lie, I cant hold anything - I dont possess anything - not even the thought.
It is a state of rest - yet it is driven by intense activity.

Experience 29 – 15th June 2009

There was a cut inside the brain today.
I was sitting in the class room and listening to the lecture, when there was this cut exactly at the opening on top of the head and in the center.
It could be anything inside the brain, but was definitely like a "cut", a strong one. A bit of pain and gone !
The experience blacked me out for 3 seconds and then I was back. After the cut, there was some intense activity in the forehead.
I am having headache from the afternoon and the activity is intense today.
Will take some rest.

Experience 28 – 8th June 2009

In the last few days, K movement has moved out from being a digital activity to a continuos activity.
Previously, K would move from the base of the spine to the brain as digital impulses at frequent intervals of time.
However, the movement is now continuos.The continuos movement can be thought of exactly as an infinite thread "spiraling" and
moving to the top of the head. This is similar to the snake movement in the spine but it moves to new height in the spine after each rotation.
Also, till now I didn't experience heat for Kundalini movement. But now I experience heat at the junction of spine connecting the brain.(hind brain).
The animation/activity in the brain still continues.I have realised that my motivational levels have come down.
I cant be the other person. I cannot lie. I cannot act. I am sure my "ego death" process has started.
I am neither bothered about anything nor worried about something.
But I also know these are happening because of the Kundalini.

Experience 27 – 8th June 2009

I am done with my internship and now into the second year !
The past three months have been a roller coaster ride and I did a more detailed analysis of what is going on.

Observations in the last three months
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1. In the first month and previous months, K would flow ( or I could perceive) when I would go to bed from the spine end to the brain.
But in the last two months K flows incessantly even while sitting,walking etc. On an average one stream of movement from base to brain would occur once in 5 mins.

2. I shall now describe the process that happens for the flow.
While there is a tendency for the energy go up into the brain automatically, the energy that reaches the brain actually has this raw power that it applies a suction force
on the head. This can be compared to the water being pulled up via the hose pipe by applying suction on the top. The energy that actually makes through to the top of the
head apart from doing the "activity", actually acts to apply pressure at definite points in the head so as to pull in more K from the base of the spine. Focus on the base of the spine also
helps to move K from the base of the spine to the brain. Sleeping wit backbone touching the bed, definitely accelerates the process as the gravitational force would be less to
pull in the energy from the base.Excess flow can be controlled by sleeping sideways.Concentration on the base of the spine continuously and sleeping horizontally, backbone touching bed
results in excess K moving to the brain and hence one has an "energetic" sleep - you sleep but feel as though you cant or be conscious of surroundings while sleeping.Sleeping vertically
relatively curtails this process and makes me get a better sleep. Sleeping with one leg stretched out and one leg bent, such as the shirshasana on bed - encourages more energy flow up the spine as there is
a pressure at the muladhara with one leg bent. "At times", energy was felt to come from the legs as if to kick K at the base of the spine and then move up to the head and back to earth.
In this experience, I felt as though the spine was like a bar magnet with clear poles in the base of the spine and brain.

3. For me now though K activity is tremendous, heat is very less. I need not gulp tons of water now nor do I experience much heat.

4.. What is the nature of the energy that flows ?
As experienced, each of the energy packet from the base to the top is like - the plastic cover that supports the shirts collar in shops.
Its movement from the base of the spine to the brain is in this plastic cover form as I perceive.

6. What is the activity in the brain ?
So to sum up, what happens is Kundalini energy packet move from the base of the spine to the brain.
Once in the brain, the energy has two activities.
a. Apply suction force to pull in more energy from the base
b. Use the brain for transformation. - I do not at this point know what is the transformation taking place.
But I know that transformation is happeneing in the brain. The activity is more on the top of the head and ocassionally in back of the head(medulla oblongata).
The activity that is happening in the brain is transforming the brain. K can be thought about as the potent prana. The normal prana that helps in maintaining the body becomes
consciuos with the awakening of K. This awareness happens maily because the prana is now more potent and has more energy.
I have as brief pains while vibrations happen at the top of the head, near the forehead etc.
I shall try to pen more abt this in the next e-mail.

Experience 26 – 4th March 2008

The pleasurable days have stopped and am feeling tired for the last two days.
Couldn't sleep properly yesterday. There was itching through out the body.
The nightly Kundalini move still continues.
As soon as the spine hits the bed, K activates and moves up.
While, I feel all the chakras activating one by one as the K moves up, off late I also feel a
chakra getting activated on the left side where the heart is there.
While the heart chakra also gets activated near the depression in the chest, the chakra in the
left side is also another one. May be this is a minor chakra?
Have a slight fever and cold today,may be due to bad sleep.

In the past few days, my tongue was cleaned.A stick was used to clean the upper part of the tongue. Later the tongue was made bottom up and the lower
part was cleaned. While I know that my tongue was still touching the palette and there was no change in its position, I still feel that it was rotated and cleaned.
How can this happen?

A new activity started yesterday was the act of plucking in the forehead.
Looks like some changes inside the forehead are being made.
While I can make out what is happening on the sensory organs what is happening though I cant see, I cant make out what is happening in the brain/inside the forehead.

~In the exam hall while writing the exam, I could hear the bee buzz in the ears.
~ Have got used to K, but sometimes I feel 'Why me?'
~ 2 more exams and I complete first year !

Experience 25 – 1st March 2009

I have put in my experiences in a hour.
Hope this will be useful sometime and more research can be done on this activity

Have written it as I have experienced, excuse me for any semantics.

23:07
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cleaning of the front teeth,side teeth on the left side
moved to right side energy stick into the right side and up, inserted the energy stick very deep
reached to the ends of right molars

23:10
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moved to 3rd eye, pressure at temples, energy rotating in the head and making cyclic movement,
energy rising above the head,energy stick into the temples such that the sticks from the left
and right are placed vertically one above/below each other. Removed the energy stick

23:13
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stick now moves to the top of the head and another into the mouth.This time it moves via the
connecting link of the tongue to the mouth and tries to stretch, no pain though.stick removed and made vertical in the
mouth and cleaned the palette as we clean the wind shutter.cleaning at the far ends again.cleaning at the corners of the neck.cleaning of the tonsil -> first left and then right (energy engulfes the tonsil - feeling is the way we clean the apple with a cloth)

23:17
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into the ear and via the ear iinto the mouth again, energy cleaning on the neck below the tonsil.
vertical painting like cleaning on the neck, touched the depression in the neck, horiaontal cleaning on the left
side of the neck - as if scotch brite is used to clean the vessel, back to vertical cleaning on neck, moved to the central
portion of the neck,cleaning is below the depression, moved to the right side of the neck, cleaning simultaneously in the teeth also, tingling sensation on the right cheek where cleaning is happening in the teeth

23:21
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left nostril. as if a stick is used to clean.turning the chakra in the throatin the clock wise.patting on the thord eye
stick into the mouth, left molar clean, cleaning in the neck continues vertical and horizontal

23:25
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something moving from the third eye to above. Hard pressed on above the third eye - middle of the forehead.A feeling of
sprinking happening on top of the headenergy stick inserted from one ear to another, enery wrapping around the right ear
circular motuions on the right teeth. energy from the head, back of the ear, chin and back to the head - > energy wrap.

23:28
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front teeth cleanup as we brush our teeth but in a vertical motion, down to up;cylindrical light on both the ears, energy inside the ears to clean up inside the ears, the typical hand movement cleaning,feeling that the ears are now bent

23:30
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cylindrical light onthe temples;cleaing in the neck continues;as soon as i closed my eyes for a second - energy moved into
the eyes to clean my eyes; i closed my eyes again - this time activity in the third eye - a layer was removed, the
eye lid was opened left to right ; tapping on the eye; 22 times the eye was tapped.

23:31
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forgot to keep the tongue in position after the last activity - hence got irritation - touched the tongue to the palette
Feeling as if a cover in the middle of the head was halfened and some activyt in the ajna; the cleaning activity in the neck is all thru;i can eith concentrate on the activity on the neck or the activity in the head

23:36
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cleanig of the third eye.somethign went into it and was closed back. i closed my eyes and they were tapped as if to
signify everything is ok; energy moved into mouth this time directly from the front.

23:39
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left molars cleaning on top of the teeth; see saw between the teeth; energy helmet moved from the top, the energy circled centrally around soemting top of the head;cleaning on thehead; energy cleaning on the front teeth; throat chakra/energy rotating in the neck;energy moved into the left nostril and then pierced into the mouth;

23:43
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activity on top of the head;activity stopped in the neck;tapping on the forehead;energy stick from the temples into the mouth;energy wrap across the left; chakra at navel got activated;cleaning on the outside of the ear;the crevices of the ear;massaging onthe temples by a energy slab ( its like a plastic cover but thick);

23:50
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left ear and right ear cleaning;energy from right ear across the mouth to the left;
both the ends are pulled and now compressed; enegy stick from teh right ear pin pointed on the base of the mouth;; stick removed from ear and placed vertically inside the mouth;horizontally another stick placed;cleaning of wisdom teeth on the left side;now on the right sidel pierced the hard skin below the teeth and cleaned there; cleaning on the right wisdom teeth - the feeling is that of a stick used to clean ; stick cleaning the palette; its like a pen on paper - no itching though;

23:56
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energy masaging the left and right jaw from outside; energy stick inserted from the chin onto the palette;as soon as i close my eyes; k cleans the eyes;circular vertex on right and left cheeks; exercising the ears by bending down;patting on the head - the way mother does to a son after being silly;energy trying to encircle the ajna;energy virtes onto the eyes and settled in the forehead

00:06
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focus on the something small strcuture next to ajna; cleaned the structure; patted onthe same; some changes in the forehead;
cleanign the inner most organs of teh ears

Experience 24 – 26th February,2009

Though I have put in my experiences, it looks as though I don't remember much what happened.
Hence, I went back and read my experiences and it felt as though it was normal.


Not much of a difference in the activity going on.
K at times works on temples, at times inside my mouth on the teeth,ears and forehead
Have few observations to make -

a. The movement of energy from the forehead to the base chakra and back happened today
many times. The flow of this energy was similar to that of a movement of insect larva through the central channel via the chakras.
In the sense, move to a new point across the central channel, recede from the old point to the new point and then move to the new point and so on.
We can also picturize this as two fingers the second finger trying to catch up with the first one.

b. K also went through on the upper portions of the mouth palette. It starts with energy moving through the mouth and this results in a temptation to
widen the mouth. K makes its way through the upper side of the neck/palette. In the last few days, K cleaned sections of backsides of eyes, backside of forehead
and back of cheeks by making entry thru the upper portions of palette.(mouth -> neck -> palette)

c. The brain was separated into two parts with a vertical light slab placed exactly at the mid point of the head.
There was a slight pain due to the sharp edged of the slab at the midpoint of the forehead.

d. I have realised that similar activity is happening in the body also but I can either concentrate on the activites on the head or the chest level.
Perception of changes happening in the head is easily identifiable.

Final Exams coming up next week :)

Experience 23 - 21st February 2009

K is still active in the face. The temple pressure is now only occasional and the amount of

pressure has decreased.

Energy moving into/out of the ears has also decreased.

It has now come down to the teeth and now the focus is on teeth.

An energy rod is used for cleaning the teeth. The energy rod is inserted from one of the

ears into the mouth.

Once the rod is in the mouth cleaning happens at various positions as detailed below -

1. Energy/Press happens initially outside the mouth. It stated with the right lower jaw.

Hard press was made on the right lower jaw so as to slightly pain and then two

sheets/slabs of vertical light slabs were focussed on the jaw one from the outside

and another from inside.

2. Once this section is highlighted(the jaw), then the energy stick inserted from the ears

into the mouth is used to clean the teeth.

Teeth is cleaned on the surface, between two teeth ( energy slab passes in between), hard

surface skin below the teeth.

The feeling is as if this energy stick is releasing some cool liquid.

3. This process is repeated on the left lower jaw also. The upper jaw cleaning hasnt

started yet.

However, the energy stick is now in vertical position in my mouth, as I put in these words.

The cleaning of the palette is happening.

The base of the stick is fixed and then the stick makes oscillatory movements to clean the

upper palette. Finally cleaning in a circular path.

4. To facilitate that the entire mouth is cleaned, there is a horizontal energy stick inside

my mouth, widening my mouth.

PS - All these changes are happening not in the physical body but in the subtle body I

guess. I can feel it is happening but cant trace it to where it is happening.

Does teeth exist in the subtle body? or is it that the activity is happening in the physical

body and the energy is invisble?

This is because, I know that the mouth is stretched horizontally because of the energy

stick but is normal when I see myself in the mirror.

Experience 22 - 18th February 2009

The meditation hours have now come down.

Previously, I had to meditate as I used to become weak and the process was not moving.

Of late, I need not meditate. The process is in my head and is going on.

Observations

1. The pressure at the temples and energy moving inside the ear is still there.

The energy moves into the right ear and then into the mouth and then comes out of the

left ear.

There is pressure at the temples also. Whereas energy was in the ear in my previous post

also,

this time the energy inside the ear is going deep as if to touch parts inside the ear.

2. Sensation of circular globule of light - can feel only the circumference - in the ears and

on the cheeks - moving

3. Needles piercing at various positions in the body - including forehead, the small

opening near the eyes, the nerves in the wrists.

4. Can feel a sheet around my head - silky and moving - a feeling that the entire head is

inside a flexible silky sheet.

5. Wrapping across my head - the bandage that we have after a accident - head-neck-head.

Experience 21 - 10th February 2009

For the past few days, it has been a continuos pressure at the temples.

What seemed like a pressure on the temples has now turned into a massage, the right

pressure on both the sides.

At times, when the pressure decreases and moves on to other areas, I yearn for the right

pressure to come back at the temples.

The feeling is like a 24 hr massage therapy on you temples.

Few questions I had for the group, with my experiences -

Please let me know your answers for the same, if you find time.

a. Do you experience continuous activity or does it stop for few days and then you

start experiencing ?

For me it is continuous on the go for the past 1.5 month

b. Is there a time when the K activity is more/less during day/night ?

For me the activity is tremendous usually from 3-5 pm. The activity is such that my body

feels heavy and I am down there helpless, as if I have fallen drunk.

K activity is usually less when I get up in the morning for 1 hr - in that energy movement

is slow.

c. Do you have K activity on the head always?

For me, after the first few days there is some energy movement always in the head.

d. Is there a specific diet that you follow ?

I am a vegetarian and have very less of junk food.

e.How many times do you meditate in a day?

My meditation levels are random. During the initial weeks, I spent around 6-7hrs in

meditation per day as I was very enthusiastic as to what is happening

The meditation hours have now come down. I usually, have one in the afternoon(when I

have time),evening and then before going to bed.

Each session of around 1-1.5 hr average( can go till 3 hrs)

f. Why do you meditate?

My head gets heavy and currently there is some giddiness after sometime if I dont

meditate.

g. Has your meditation improved ?

Yes. Previously without K, I used to doze off after 20-30 minutes of a sitting.

I am able to meditate for a longer time mainly because of I become the witness of the K

activity going on - like watching a serial in the TV, and hence not dozing off.

h. Do you experience blank periods?

Yes. for the past few days my mind goes blank. You neither want to focus on the past nor

on the future.

You are doing something in the present but a kind of feeling that nothing is registering

and dont remember much feeling.

My father called up and I totally went blank and didnt know what to speak and a kind of

feeling that whatever I spoke was not thought of but came instantaneously.

I ruled out the possibility of not having good sleep with the above experience.

Having my 1st year exams in weeks from now. The mid terms were good.

Experience 20 - 6th February 2009

The article on the pressure at the temples perfectly correlates with my

experience.

Here I put in the points with my experience.

I can't see the helmet but I can experience the helmet being built as well as a cap on top

of the head.

The steps that were taken to built the helmet over the past few days are as follows -

1. The eyes were cleaned.Eyes tapping, light moving to eyes, irritations etc.

2. The energy moved from one nostril to another making me sneeze at times, with

possible "ticks" ,"nicks" sounds in the cranium.

3. The energy moved into both the ears, as if to exert pressure. The energy exerting can

be

thought of to be supporting the sheath/helmet outside.

4. Light/Energy from teeth points - this is again to support the helmet at certain points.

The best of all. The process for placing the helmet on the head is as follows.

a.First imagine as if a handkerchief is placed with open ends in the front and then closed

at the back ( as in a helmet).

b.The ends of the handkerchief ( energy) are brought backwards of the ears, so that the

energy passes from the forehead, away from the eyes, backwards of ears , streamline

across the ears and then falls of towards the neck.

c. The process is repeated first right and then left.

d. Near the neck the helmet was tied as in we tie a scarf. The knot was put 3 times.

Once the helmet is thus placed, lights from the ears, mouth cavity expand the helmet and

then there is a appearance of a cap on top of the head.

I have read line by line the article on temple pressure at -

http://www.kundaliniawakeningsystems1.com/kundalini-temple-pressures.html

and thrilled by its correctness with my experience.

As I experience all these, I have till now not sighted anything.

When I close my eyes, I know that lights of different intensities are acting but I can't see

any.

Should I be doing anything?